Some Bullshit Excuse

Twenty-something dead beat trying to figure herself out

My parents are hands down the two most outstanding people I have ever met, for very opposite reasons. My mom lives for her work despite the pay (that nearly never makes ends meet) and my dad wakes up everyday for a job he hates, because it pays the bills. My dad has found passion in life and it is music and friends and photos and memories, but he hasn’t been on a single date since the divorce because he gave up on that kind of love. My mom dates and hopes to find the passion that she has been looking for, but has the absolute worst fucking taste. I feel like I’ve adopted the worst and best of them. But not in the right combination. I live for my work because it pays the bills and gives me somewhere to go everyday. And I have the absolute worst fucking taste because I gave up on believing that I deserve passion and friends and memories. So I sit alone in my room being content with my nothingness. Complaining, but not complaining, because this is the loneliest and happiest I’ve ever been. Just who I am I guess. 

I saved up for a Gameboy for over a year. I think I put away twice the amount that it would actually cost. I made a contract that it wouldn’t interfere with my school and that I wouldn’t let Liam use it if it started to interfere with his. My dad was amazed by my effort. We went to Sears to look at gameboys. I wanted the yellow one that came with Pokemon. We decided to sleep on it and buy it the next day. We almost got hit by another car on the way home, a drunk driver I presume. He/she/they would have hit me on the passenger side, if contact had been made chances are I wouldn’t have survived. I never went back to Sears. I never got my Gameboy. Haven’t played a second of Pokemon ever since. 

(Source: fyspringfield.com, via 86thefuture)

I have come in contact with a lot of really talented human persons in the past two weeks and it makes me want to give up on everything.

The Salt Room Loves You. 

The Salt Room Loves You. 

My youth was wasted on nostalgia. Always missing/pissing/moaning about some one/thing/where that I could no longer touch with my hands, with my eyes, instead of enjoying the beauty of the people and places right in front of me. My biggest mistake was thinking of the past as the good old days. 
So now I speak in present tense despite its lack of interest and adventure to others, I enjoy my quiet nights alone in my room/afternoons reading in the sun. This is who/where I want to be. 

yesysabella asked: Hi!!

1. First impression: I thought you were a babe from moment one.
2. Truth is: it bums me out that I haven’t had you slumber party at my house in such a long time. 
3. How old do you look: 25
4. Have you ever made me laugh: I’m all giggles around you. 
5. Have you ever made me mad: mad excited. 
6. Best feature: You’ve got some pretty stellar lips/eyelashes.  
7. Have I ever had a crush on you: friend crushin all the way  
8. You’re my: sweater twin
9. Name in my phone: Don’t have your # anymore either :/
10. Should you post this too? go for it! 

false-blackbears asked: Hi

1. First impression: I’m trying to remember what the first class we had together was. Was it that “Reading/SAT Prep Class”? Or Latin? Anyway, I always had fun goofing off.
2. Truth is: I kind of miss you having longer hair.  
3. How old do you look: This is hard because I know how old you are. You look young for your age (no shame because I do too). Baby faced til death. 
4. Have you ever made me laugh: Most of our friendship was based on jokes so, of course. 
5. Have you ever made me mad: I think you hit me on accident  when we were wrestling with Sandi or something and I was mad for a few minutes. 
6. Best feature: Your eye color is pretty dope   
7. Have I ever had a crush on you: There were some feelings at one point. 
8. You’re my: favorite ex classmate? 
9. Name in my phone: This is going to be the same for every body because I only have like 15 #s in my phone and they are all family/roommate/work related. 
10. Should you post this too? whatever tickles your fancy 

timmysuburbs asked: HI!

1. First impression: I recall complimenting you on your t-shirt.
2. Truth is: You live too far away.
3. How old do you look: 26
4. Have you ever made me laugh: Every time I see you.
5. Have you ever made me mad: Nope
6. Best feature: Your laugh 
7. Have I ever had a crush on you: Nope 
8. You’re my: favorite house visitor even though it doesn’t happen very often anymore.
9. Name in my phone: You don’t exist in my phone (got a new one a few months ago).
10. Should you post this too? Why not?

fantasticraig asked: Hi.

1. First impression: pretty sure the first time we met was when we played apples to apples and Mike Wall gave me too many shots, but I thought you were funny and I think I picked your apples to apples cards most of the night. 
2. Truth is: I feel bad that we don’t talk as often anymore, but I’m terrible at communication these days since I don’t use any instant messenger type deals anymore. 
3. How old do you look: 27/8ish 
4. Have you ever made me laugh: On several occasions 
5. Have you ever made me mad: Nahhhhh
6. Best feature: You make sarcasm beautiful sometimes 
7. Have I ever had a crush on you: Nope 
8. You’re my: most complicated person to skype with since one of our computers always fucks up 
9. Name in my phone: I don’t think I have your number anymore because I’ve gotten three new phones since the last time we had phone contact. 
10. Should you post this too? Do what you want 

spunk-182 asked: Hi!

1. First impression: I’ll admit that I was pretty drunk when we met, but I recall thinking you were very sweet and you helped me keep Alex in line (standing upright) at his birthday. 
2. Truth is: I would like to see you sometime and not have it be on accident. 
3. How old do you look: I honestly believed you were older than me so 25ish. 
4. Have you ever made me laugh: I’ve done some giggling in your presence. 
5. Have you ever made me mad: Not even slightly
6. Best feature: I’m insanely jealous of your hair. 
7. Have I ever had a crush on you: Nope 
8. You’re my: favorite bartender ;) 
9. Name in my phone: Unfortunately we aren’t phone friends 
10. Should you post this too? :P

Been single for three years now (not in a I’ve not been seeing people way,but the last time someone said out loud “I’m in a relationship with Nora” kind of way).  I wish I could afford to be picky. Because really I want to cook dinner,watch old movies, we’d both compliment the hero and the heroin for their charm, and then put on Lucero and fuck all night. Some dudes hate cuddling. 9 times out of ten im not feeling it either, but we’d have it figured out. and Seymour would sleep at our feet. And im just drunk and rambling. I’ll be single forever, whatever.
I think I could make someone happy one day, 

Four days til Christmas and I’m getting steamy in a tank top (because FL is a fucking furnace)., 

Four days til Christmas and I’m getting steamy in a tank top (because FL is a fucking furnace)., 

Worked 8 hours on my day off. 

Worked 8 hours on my day off.